I'm sensing a pattern. In everything - my behaviors, interests, likes, dislikes - I am a very predictable person. I don't know if I wish it were different or not, but it is the way it is. We've come upon finals week and like clockwork, I am doing ANYTHING I can to procrastinate or really to not study. I would normally consider myself a driven and goal-oriented person, I do well in school, but hell - who WANTS to study for finals? There has to be a better way to assess our cumulative knowledge, or at least a more beneficial one. As soon as I take these tests... BAM! Information gone.
As such, I have thought about everything but my tests and the classes that they are in for the last few days and can't help but wonder why it is that every time I stop to think about... well... anything, I end up thinking about everything that I didn't know I wanted or needed to think about. It's a gross feeling, really. My head is so full of what ifs and whys and all I want to do is stop.
I think about menial things, like painting my nails... I NEVER paint my nails. And I think about huge things regarding my future and my hopes and dreams and decisions...
BUT, for the life of me, I can't bring myself to study Risk Mitigation, Distance Learning, E-Commerce, Verb Conjugations, Participles, Pronouns, Adverbs or anything that I really should focus on.
AND more than anything I can't stop thinking about the one person that I want more than anything to not think about... gah.
Imma study. Peace.
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